“Geez, Lecram… that sounds like some kind of self-help pop psychology term!” This topic has actually crept into several conversations of late with various friends. The basic idea is that one cannot be of any use to anyone else unless one is self sufficient first. And this applies to any and all aspects of the human condition. Simple logic, right? Yet, it amazes me how this idea is an alien concept to so many.
Some are reviled by the idea because the connotation is that this is selfish behavior. I can see how that can happen since the natural human tendency is to jump on the negative right off the bat. So, in an effort to dispel the natural raising of a wall to any potential free exchange of ideas on this topic I use the word “selfful” instead.
Why do I bring this up? Well, at this point in my life I’m moving forward with the intent of making myself selfful again. I have always been pretty independent but, as in life, our capacity to be “filled” is subject to the natural laws of “ebb and flow”. That is life, isn’t it?
So, part of the reason I embarked on this show that is coming up is an attempt to do just that. Not only am I doing the show… I am IN the show. That doesn’t happen very often simply because performing is not one of my favorite aspects in the realm of my theatre endeavors. But I am doing it anyway.
A couple of my friends who are well aware of my quirks suggested that I was undertaking this project in an attempt to break out of my reclusive mode as well as the need to experience total control over the final product. I think they have a point.
Placing myself in front of an audience would certainly force me out of my self imposed reclusive lifestyle over the last few years. And perhaps it is true that exercising total control over my half of the show is what I need to know… that I am still capable in this field… sort of setting a new (positive) point of reference to go forward.
Whatever the case… the promos have gone out which means I now have to put it up. It is gratifying to know that some things in my life remain a constant… in this case, open my big mouth… then having to deliver. Can you tell that I’m both excited and scared shitless that the show opens in a week and a half?
Hope you are all having a great start of the week. Cheers!