Aye, it has been a while. October is here… though about a month ago I saw Christmas decorations go up at a store. All I could do was to shake my head and smile sadly.
Since this a random post here is a random thought… one of many that flit through my rabid mind from time to time.
ANTICIPATION IMPLOSION:
We’ve all had it. You think and dream and want something so much (in secret) that when you finally get/achieve it you are… less than thrilled. It’s a “WOW… wow” moment. An anti-climax at best. The fevered build up to getting it… all that fantasizing about how your life will be so much better… just fizzles into a sad soft plop.
So, you either sadly set it aside and move on… or you wear your game face and extol all the benefits of having it to any and everyone you come across. Until, of course, you exhaust yourself from the 24/7 theatre de façade that you’ve cast yourself in just to save face… or worse.
Your new psychosis now becomes the stress of how long your hubris can actually hold out. Every once in a while your honesty slips… then you quickly backtrack to carelessly cover up only to come off as disingenuous.
And if one persists, the descent gets steeper and deeper. This spiral of untruth seeps into other aspects of your life causing you to become less than honest with others over the simplest things. The only way to avoid that is to avoid them.
Now you are cut off… or more accurately, you have cut yourself off. And in your self imposed solitude of this fantasy web you’ve cocooned yourself in you diminish as a person.
Viscous cycle that. Funny how that is, eh?
So… yeah… I think about that stuff. Granted how I expressed it might swing toward the dramatic… but it doesn’t make it any less true.
Happy first post of October.